On this day of thanks...

I have so much I am grateful for. Like most of us, I dont acknowledge some of the things I have in my life like I should. Unanswered prayers and unrealised blessings abound in my life. Ive been thinking about it a lot lately...I am so grateful that my life isnt where I thought it would be. The beauty of it all is that I have stopped planning life and now I just get to enjoy it. My home has changed and evolved with every decision in my life. When I was in high school I ached to move away, be on my own, be someone else. When I moved to Missouri I met some of my best friends, I learned how much I loved to do things on my own, I found a way to love my self and my God. But then I was ready to be an adult of some sorts. So I moved to Utah. There I found my religion, a way to love my family from a distance and a fear of not being on my very own. I prayed and prayed that I would get to do this forever. I loved who I was and desperately hoped I would never have to change my life. I love my friends, but the funny part is the people whom I love the most are the ones I didnt see coming. I ran out of money. One of Gods most amazing unanswered prayers and unrealized blessings. I, in the last 10 months, have found a way to love being home. I love my family. My mom is my best friend. I get the chance to spend time with people whom might not be around forever. I fell in love with an amazing man whom I would have never met with out falling on my face once or twice and getting broke. On this day of thanks giving I want to give thanks to a mother who let me be my own self, to Shaun for loving me for who I am, for my family who drives me crazy and for Gods unanswered prayers and the blessings I am sometimes unaware of.